Things just got real

I just got home from cashing the last check I will ever get from my last job. I got the the largest sum of money I have ever gotten at one time. Once I got the cash in hand I got really tense, my head started to hurt, and I got a little nauseous. I should be happy ,right? Why am I not happy? I'm just a bundle of raw nerve endings. I have to go buy my ticket tomorrow, I have to clean, I have to pack. I have to figure out if I am going to sell my X-Box 360 or keep it. I have too much to do. I feel sick....