They always pry,
They Always want to know why
And then they pull you in
And then you want to die
You'll burn so deep inside
And then it gets on top of you
It won't let you go
Believe me when I tell you
Life will not break your heart
It'll crush it
You never felt so good
You never felt so well
And then you open your heart right up
And say "come on in"
And that's when you stop breathing, man
And the bleeding will never end
Heart smasher
Knives in your mind
-Rollins Band
"Blues Jam"
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That pretty much sums up how I feel right now. This morning I found out that my mother is on life support. There is a tube running from her heart to her brain. I just got off the phone with one of my employees. The cat is out of the bag. People know that they are going to be out of a job soon. I feel like there is a HUGE FUCKING WEIGHT that has just been set on my shoulders. I just want to run away. Go to Alaska, Canada, anywhere but here and now. I don't know how much I can take. I feel sick, my heart is beating out of control, I'm tense. I want some serious fucking drugs (don't worry I won't be making any calls to the dope-man. I'm broke)
1 comment:
I just read something in an article that would be helpful for all of us to remember:
"* If your parents or in-laws are rude, nasty, hateful and negative,
you do not have to visit them. You can't choose your parents but you
can choose your family. Just because someone gave birth to you does
not give her any right to ruin your day. Don't feel guilty for not
visiting extended family that is abusive or demeaning to you, your
spouse or children."~Michael Webb
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