Okay, I can do this, I can do this , I can do this, I can....

I'm trying my best not to freak out. I have decided to move to Chicago, Illinois when I am finished with my current job. I have been looking on Craig's list at rooms to rent. I have spent HOURS looking through ads and posting responses. So far the responses I have been getting are less than encouraging. It seems one person doesn't want to rent me a room because I am coming from out of state and they are afraid I would not follow through with my obligations. Another person only wanted to rent to a woman. Actually I have seen a lot of that and I have flagged every ad I have seen saying "women only" for discrimination. (One guy actually asked if I was male or female after I signed off with my name. I don't know ANY ladies with my name. This whole thing is daunting. There is this little voice in my head called "Doubt". Every time i start looking through ads for cheap housing, or a job. Doubt will chime in. Doubt will tell me I can't do this. Doubt will tell me that I am a loser. Doubt will tell me that I will end up freezing to death on the street in the middle of a Chi-town winter. Doubt tells me that I will have to move in with my parents in Missouri. Doubt SUCKS!

The almighty Rollins says that if you wanna see someplace new you just have to pack up and just GO. I am trying to keep this in mind. I'm trying to stick the middle finger in Doubt's face. But at times Doubt just stares at me indifferently. Other times Doubt laughs at me like a
mother-fucker sneering at me and showing me his bloody fangs because he just took a chunk out of my heart and ate it. I feel like I am on the verge of a panic attack. I want to kick it in Chicago so bad. I just need to kick the shit out of that asshole named Doubt.